So I had a meltdown. After feeling sorry for myself for the past several months I have decided I need to turn this around. I need to stay positive – something I often need to work on. On an aside, why is that we frequently need to work on our “positive” traits but are very skilled at our “negative” traits?? Really, my “negative” traits I have down to an art form!!
Another thing I need to do is rework my budget based on what I am currently making and cut some corners. Some will be easier to do and others not so much. I often have a tough time saying no when it comes to social activities. See, I often plan to do only so much and then end up going out more….movies, plays, drinks, coffee/tea, dinner, shopping. They are my “squirrels“. (If you have seen the animated movie “Up” then you will know how the dogs are distracted by squirrels). Socializing distracts me. I do not intend to be a hermit, though at times that is just what I need, but I do need to live within a reasonable budget and still have fun (squirrel!!). Anyone know of fun free things to do in Van and who wants to join me??
I am a planner so this really should not be that hard for me. I still do not know why I am struggling with this whole trip. Yes, I am slow at doing pretty much most things in my life so I am not different with this situation. But my frustration with myself grows and this scenario of less work and things breaking around me. Well I guess I can just do what I can, make some better choices, remain focused and try not to let these setbacks take too much space in my mind. Okay, let’s get on with it.